Suddenly I Remembered.................. :'/

Fuckin' flashback is attack me now... How can? I'm just really didn't know why it's so hard to do, sometimes felt like I really hate you for sure. You've change and I don't even know who you are cause you're different than before. Now I have someone who better than you and I hope so. Even I know you're the best ex I ever had... You're the 1st and no one can change it, may you felt the same way too.. The first would never be replaced

so now i know where my position in your heart, thanks for your kindness for didnt want to hurt me, i appreciate that, you're kind, really, i feel warm when i still with you, you're the best boyfriend i ever had, its the first time i feel i loved by someone, you give me a deep memories in my hearts. i know life must be go on, nothing can be forever, maybe i'm too much, but i really love you from my heart, i want to take care of you, i want to barrier you, i still want to be with you, but................................. its only my ego, i cant do anything, i dont want to treatened you, i must give you a freedom. fyi, when i write this, i'm crying haha... i want to show you that i'm strong but what? i'm crying again -,- i'll try my best to be stronger again, sorry for disturbing you, i'll keep our memories warmly in my heart, i wont forget you, stupid me to hope we can be like before, i still love you, more and more but maybe its time for me to pass you away, to someone heart, maybe................ haha truthly, i'm always looking for your facebook profile and idk why i always felt jealous.... i always looking for you, waiting for you, but when i know your words 'i dont want to hurt her' serously, my hope flew away.............. i dont know where my hope goes by, thanks for everything and your kindness.. please, searching a good girl and improve your score for me too.... i only want to seeing you happy. idk what to do, because its my first time really in love with someone, not 'want to keep someone for us',but at least, no words can off from my mouth, its your choice, i'll miss you, take care chibby

dedicated for AAP

Nathaniel Sabian Sitorus 20042010♥

N : ".....nggg rasss, nggg.......gue suka sama lo nggg...."
L : "ha?heeee"
N : "....nggg lo mau gak ras?"
L : "mau apa?"
N : "......nggg mau gak jadi cewek gua?"
L : -----spechless
N : "ras jawab dong ras ngggggg hmmmm mmmm....."
L : "iya mau kok......"

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Nathaniel Sabian Sitorus. dua puluh april dua ribu sepuluh. Just for your information, I love him so much. He's the one and only for me. I've been waiting too long for him, and now when he's mine, I'll try to give my best and I never want to disappoint him. Even sometimes he doesn't care, sensitive and doesn't respect me, he's still the best I've ever had and I'm so thankfull I found him :) I've tried so hard to understand that he has his own way to show his love for me. He's my number one guy and I'll always making time for him. I want him to stay close, don't go. And I want him to know that I miss him all the time, more and more each day :)

niel, thanks for bringing back my smile. I was glad to have you.You are the entertainer for me if I’m lonely.Thanks for everything.Thanks for your attention to me.Only you who understand me I really adore you.Without you maybe I was lonely.You’re my mood booster. You are the answer to every prayer I've offered. You are a song, a dream, a whisper, and I don't know how I could live without you for as long as I have. I love you, more than you can ever imagine. I always have, and i always will♥