this is isn't story about you, this is for you :

Really. I don’t know where to start.

Yeah, I’ve been planning to write something about you, something for you, so you can know how much you mean to me. I want you to know that you’ve changed my life and my point of view about it. I thought if I write you something, you will know how much I love you. I need you. I think of you. I care about you. How special you are for me. I just can’t find the right words. I’m trying hard not to write them too cheesy.

This isn’t a love letter. I don’t even know what I should call this. But I dedicate this to you :P

I was not good at showing you how much I. Love. You. I hope you can understand. I wasn’t typical of romantic girl, yeah but you change me. I’m so happy knowing that I could say “I love you” to you shamelessly yesterday. I. Love. How. You. Make. Me. Feel!

I’m tired of this kind of conversation.

” L: Kamu baik banget! N: Baik kenapa? L: Gatau, baik aja. Baik bgt. N: -__-”

” L: Aku syg kamu…ah MALU! N: Hahaha kalo beneran syg kenapa malu.”

I didn’t know what the heck is happening to me everytime you ask me that. Did I say I don’t know? I always know it! I’m not saying that because of no reason! It’s because there’s too much reason and I can’t tell you one by one. I’m too shy.

I read this article yesterday: http://sweetnostalgia.wordpress.com/2007/10/30/find-someone/

Find someone who will kiss you just before the traffic light turns green. Who will close his eyes when he hugs you, who will patiently wait for you after class or after work. Who will smell your hair every chance he gets, who will wipe your sweat with his hanky. Who will sing your favorite song even if he can’t carry a tune. Who will let you rest over his shoulder. Who’ll let you sleep on his lap and will give you the first and last bite of his burger. Who’ll squeeze your hand tighter when you squeezed his… Find someone who occupies your dream every night. And when you find him never let him go.

It was so reminding me of you. You are what I’ve been wishing for. I appreciate every little things you’ve done to me until now. I read that article and I realized that you’ve been very nice and mean SO MUCH to me.

I’ve been in love before. But I never this sure of someone.. I’m never this afraid of losing someone. I never feel like this, wanting to be by your side everytime. I miss you everytime you’re not here.

I don’t know exactly the first time I felt so comfortable with your presence in my life, but it’s getting so much better since you came :) I never forget to fall in love with you everyday, you’re the first thought in my mind when I wake up, also my last when the night falls.

Somewhere between all our laughs, long talks, stupid little fights, and all our jokes, I fell in love ♥

Life was so much boring before I met you. You’ve changed me, you’ve changed my life. You make me trust again. You can listen to the words I’m not saying. You fill my empty words. You get along with my family :P You never make me cry and you don’t even want to. You never make fun of me. You’ve been at my side when I need you. You showed me that I never have to be alone for as long as you’re around. I love how you make me feel special. You make me feel loved, needed. You’ve seen me at my worst, and yet you still love me. I hurt you, I’ve let you down, and you still love me for who I am. THANK YOU. SO MUCH!

I need you. You mean everything to me. I do hope you feel the same :)

Things are going to change from now but it won’t change me. I don’t know what will happen in the future, all I know is I want you to accompany me. I love you means I will accept you when you’re at your best and worst. I will love you when things are easy and difficult. I’ve waited for someone like you for a long time, I’m not letting you go! I don’t believe in forever, but I believe some things are just remain the same :)

I’m happy with you! No one can ever change my mind except you. I’m staying. Through the good and bad times, I’m willing to stay :)

Thank you for changing my life. Thank you for being so nice to me. Thank you for loving me, Niel :)

I LOVE YOU!

Bernadette Indah Larasati ^^