decemberain, my eyes is also raining too..

He doesn't want me anymore.
He didn't actually say that, but that's what I got from the last time we talked.
We're not going to see each other anymore.
He said I deserve someone who can be there for me.
It would hurt a lot but at least it won't leave me hanging on.
We both know that sooner or later it will end.
Even from the start.

I just wish, he'd tell me that.
That we're no longer together because he doesn't want me anymore.
Simple, abrupt and plain truth.
That will crushed all the hope inside of me that we can still be together in the future.
The soonest I accept this, the sooner I'll move on.
For now I just want to be with sadness.

I guess what I am really wondering is, is there a chance of him coming around and wanting to be with me?
I am thinking that there is, but he isn't sure because of my fucking personality.
I need reassurance about this whole thing.
I hate some answers that my friends' gived are to leave him.

I love him so much, and I just don't want it to end.
I don't want any other guy, I don't want to let him go...

I really need to know, does he want to be with me like he said he loves me?

Are these signs that he doesn't want me anymore?

All I want to do now is to devoice.
I'm becoming depressed and feeling bad of myself all the time.
I'm not the happy girl I used to be, living like this makes me feel weak and sick.
I can't stop crying every so often.