straight 2 months without you

Hey, you.

I'm not changing. I'm still the same.

Bet yeah, I can't deny I had changed a little bit. Maybe you think I'm totally different now, but actually I'm not. I just had changed a little bit. Good changes, and not-so-lucky, bad changes, too.

And you know what? You did change me.

It's because of you and things that you did to me
I'm turning to be more mature
I can think positively, think better
I can speak up my mind better
I learn to let go some things that I must let it go
I feel stronger

And it's because of you and things that you did to me, too
I'm turning into blue


BUT I'm still the same Laras. I'm the one who's so lazy to take a bath, or eat. I still have my cheery-noisy-jumps (yeah I have it back!). I still love scream and growls, but I still cry when I listen to some sweet or melancholy songs. I still the one who used to be late everyday. I still love kim bum and taylor lautner. I still got my not-too-good-expression when you got to tell me about the things. I still love singing a long. I'm still the spoiled-kid. I still say those swearing words. I still not have too much care about what to wear. I still hate my skinny body. I still hate spicy-foods. I still love purple. I still.
I still the same.

Even,
I still miss you in my every night.

It has been straight 2 months, ya. But I still feel quite the same.

GAH!
SCRATCH IT

I shouldn't be like that
I can't be like that
I don't used to be like that
NO NO NO NO

It's the different situation now and I must change my feeling. I have to. Soon. Soon. Soon.

I know I have to open my heart for somebody else, for the new one. So many people told that to me. I have to, because you are impossible to have (again).

You are impossible to come back

Impossible
Impossible
Impossible
Impossible
Impossible
Impossible
Impossible
Impossible
Impossible
Impossible
....
I repeated that words so many time in my head until it seems lose its meaning.

Yeah, it's been 2 months since we broke up.
I think I have to find someone else.

It's hard. But I'll try.

Wish me luck.